Vow Renewal
promises I made to myself upon becoming a wife
If I check on him once, I will check on you twice.
I will check in with you even when I don’t check in with him.
I will feed your hungers, and I will keep learning how to remove restrictions from your pleasure and experience of life.
I will care about your pleasure just as much if not more as I care about his.
I will keep redirecting your focus away from what others think and back to what you need.
I will love the body you live in even when it is bigger, even when it is wrinkled, even when it can’t walk, can’t hear, can’t…
I will soothe you and soothe you and soothe you and soothe you, because life is wild, and it will always be wild, and we will never be able to change that.
I will learn how to call you beautiful even when your hair looks like a river monster’s.
I will take you to the mountains when you can’t breathe, and if we can’t make it there, I will take you into the woods or down by the riverside.
I will read you to sleep when you’re anxious, show you other worlds to escape to for an hour.
I will write you love songs and love poems, and we will learn how to accept them as they are, in all their imperfections.
I will carve a pumpkin with you each Halloween, send Valentines to our friends, decorate for the seasons with our favorite music in the background, make you a birthday cake, buy you cancerversary flowers…in short, I will create traditions with you, and they will be sweet and special in company or in solitude.
I will teach you that you are enough, just as you are.
When others call all of this selfish, I will hold onto the knowledge that it is actually self-love, it is actually all we can ever really know, can ever really be assured is there at the end of each day.
And that being said, I will love you, with every fiber of my being, until death do us part.
